karma
Good Morning Volker, how have you been?
Wow, today is 29th august 2008. Time’s been running out quicker day-by-day or is just my life getting closer to its goal.
A friend of mine was here visiting me last weekend, it was a nice time together since we have not seen each other for more then 5 years.
He is trully my friend, without attachment, without grasping myself to him only feeling love, compassion, peace and friendness meantime we were together.
It was amazing because from the first minute we felt comfortable to each other, like if I had saw him the day before. How can we explain that? There was not hard time, silence time, the talking ran out easily between us, the feelings as well as were great – it was really food for my heart.
We just allowed ourselves to be ourselves.
Where these feelings come from? Why can we have this kind of relationship with someone? Weither sometimes we cannot have a regular relationship with our workteam, colleagues of work?
Some people has just desappeared from my life? I cannot find them anymore even if i tryed it.
Like family, manytimes our relationships are tense and stress out, but another time we just want to be with them, forgiving and forgeting all the hardships.
What is that? Love, compassion, karma, what is the point? Emptiness? Inherent existence? I do not know!
In the same way we have many problems in our lifes, as I had got some few problems with this friend of mine, but afterwards everything has sold out.
Geshe-la says: Why do we get so worry about things? If there is something I can solve it out I will, but weither something I cannot solve it out, I might accept that and let it go, because I cannot fix it.
But we grasp it to ourselves, we develop such strong attachment to it and then we suffer and from this suffering all of our pain, disturbing minds and sorrows come from.
On meditation we can learning how to let things go away, we can learn how to empty our mind and attain tranquil abinding. At that stage we will understanding the real nature of everything, and so, as Buddha Shakyamuni sad: we will be free from our miserable, ordinary life full of suffering, we will be free and trully happy.
Are you ready to try that? Are you ready to abandon all your graspings and attachments? I am not sure if I am, but indeed I want to be permanent happy. So, does it not a contradiction?
When can I really turn the page of my ordinary life down?
When can I fulfil my life of meaningfulness?
I want that and I am trying for that. But I am in the first step: accepting my karma and trying to change my mind only.
L&K
Marcelo
